Is it finally time for me to pick myself up?

"Because I want you with a certainty that you will perhaps never possess. Because I do not have to think twice about whether I would like to answer your text messages or pick up your phone calls. Because I’m sure. Because I do not love people halfway and that’s where you and I differ. I don’t want the occasional phone call. I don’t want to play your tired-out game."

Honesty hour #3

Words that was always on my tongue but it was yours that it came out from.

They say:

“Love yourself first." 

“You have to choose yourself."
“Chloe, you have to take care of yourself."

Giving them my best reassuring smile, I promised that I will, put myself first. But every time I hear your voice, my resolve would crumble. Give him one more chance, this time will be it, this time he’ll treat you right. This time, he’ll choose you; because I choose you, I choose us, every time.

“I’m not choosing between you or her. I’m choosing myself."

And that’s the problem, isn’t it? Not once did you not.